As usual, I’ve been AWOL for sometime and decided it was about time I came back and wrote a new post.
If you’re following me on social media you’ll know that I’ve made a decision to change the focus of my blog. It took me a while to come to the decision, and it wasn’t easy. I was worried about letting people down that might enjoy checking in and reading about cruelty-free and vegan beauty; but ultimately I had to make the decision for me.
So what’s the new focus?
Mental health and self-care.
I’ve struggled with my mental health since I was about 22 (probably even before that!) and have been on and off anti-depressants since then. The older I get the worse I feel the episodes are when they happen, and last Saturday I had my most recent melt-down.
I’ve been feeling a bit low recently but wasn’t aware that I was as bad as I am. After a few drinks out with friends, I came home, sent Hubby to the shop (for more wine!) and he came back to find me in floods of tears. The point had finally arrived where everything had got on top of me. We had a long chat, and I spent Sunday puffy eyed and feeling sorry for myself but got up Monday and made a GP appointment. So I’m back on anti-depressants and this time for the long-term; but I also know there is so much more I can do for myself.
I work full time, study for a degree part time, look after the house and do anything for anyone if they need me too; but I very rarely take time out for ‘me’. So I’m going to start exploring what I can do, how I can ‘self-care’ and try to take a little it of time for myself every day.
From now onwards, I will try and put up at least one post a week; a recap on how I’ve been feeling, what I’ve been doing and what I’ve discovered. I’m hoping that, by writing things down, it will help me, and I’ll be able to look back and see how things are improving over time. Importantly, I also hope it might help others out there that are struggling too. Obviously there may be days when I don’t feel up to it, but I know that’s ok and I’ll be back as soon as I can.
If you’re also struggling, or have in the past, please do comment or get in contact, it’s really important that we all share our stories to help and support each other.